Chomping at the bit!

 Today I feel like a race horse held behind the starting gate. My nostrils are flared, my feet are throwing back dirt, and my body is full of energy that I've never felt before. I'm ready to bolt out of this gate and change lives for the Lord. But God is telling me to wait. I so often want to run ahead of the Lord. I'm chomping at the bit to do something, anything but what I've been doing for so long. Yet, God says, "Keep at it. Keep doing what you're doing. Stay focused. Be diligent. I'm working in you and elsewhere preparing the foundation." My heart just screams, "Enough already. I can't wait another day!" And his gentle reply to me is this, "Be faithful in the small things, Daughter, and then I can give you greater things."
Every day I'm learning. I've said, "I'm sorry" more in the last year than in my entire life combined. Why? Because I'm learning. Because I actually want to be different. Because I'm daily laying down my old self and letting God replace me with the woman he wants me to be. The old me is fighting for her seat on the throne, but God keeps kicking her off! I see his hand in lives around me, and I rejoice today because the old us is being changed and when this starting gate is opened, we will have our own socks blown off by his works!
But for now, I wait and learn. I go deeper in Him and savor the moments as these restless legs are held back!

"The Lord is good to everyone who trusts in him, so it is best for us to wait in patience- to wait for him to save us!" Lamentations 3:25-26